I'm not afraid to be judged anymore... a litte afraid~

no need to hide it anymore~ i just can't hold my feelings anymore~ it's like i have been holding my breath for hours... so what if you think im gay... im not... thats the truth... "i am a girl..." of Mizuho; Otome wa Boku ni Koishiteru... hehehe thats my line~ its already 9years that i have been pretending~ hiding like a scared chicken~ a mask that no one could see through~ on my sweet 16~ i'll finnaly show my true self~ no matter what...


hehehe... in truth~ sobrang malande ako in person at medyo laging dinidibdib ang mga sabi ng tao~ hehehe~ the truth is~ maarte ako't mahilig sa mga cute things~ hehehee...

i remember the turning point of my life~ OCTOBER 10, 1999 my 6th b-day~ my so called best friends forced me to watch porn for about 4-6hrs... i was traumatized and said to myself... "i hate myself~ i hate boys~ i just... don't like how they thing... perverts..." the trauma was that i was scard of see naked bodies... even my own one... before i used to take a bath blindfolded~ hehehe hindi nmn...

still, nabad breams prin kpag mga kaguild ko at mga friends ko (hindi ung mga nagforce skin manood) ay naguusap about porn or anything like that~... jaYPeeSpeRiNNa~ that all for now... senti mode...